Sept. 8, 2006

…reposting old write ups. I got this from one of my blogs na nakalimutan ko ang username and password, hehehe. This was written Sept. 8, 2006…

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Still here at the office after a grueling meeting at DAR this afternoon…as usual, eternity ang meeting and more than that, there’s always an aftermath after every meeting …we end up having more tasks to accomplish for the next 3 weeks…i feel sick.

Should i still be talking about my duties and responsibilities here? aba, baka naman barilin na ako sa luneta nito! ayokong maging bayani huh…

Ok, for two nights straight,i didn’t sleep at the boarding house coz bobit, my childhood friend’s hubby (na si joan) went to cebu and she invited me to sleepover at their condo, in short kasambahay ang role ko…well, there are pros and cons of accepting her invitation. Pros. 1. i get to sleep comfortably in aircon mode. 2. We’ll have dinner buffet somewhere in Makati, and she’s a starbucks addict 3. She’s got lots of chocolates in her ref 4. I can stay up late to watch the US open 5. I can temporarily forget my job because she requires a 6pm on the dot office log out and 6. She’s a walking charitable insitution (hehehe), so whatever I like in her closet or in her shoe rack, i’m gonna get it, basta hindi yun yung favorite nya.

So, even its unlikely of me to leave the office at 6pm, I found myself walking fast the shangrila district to catch the MRT…I got a text, she’s in starbucks daw. So yun, inabutan ko siya with her officemate and then we end up at Bacolod Chicken Inasal. Well, it was a heavy meal…

While waiting for a cab near SM, we were planning for her bday bash over the weekend. Never thought we’d be waiting for ages and we’re both exhausted, kung ano ano ang napag-usapan namin pero di na take up yung mga issues that day…

Issue #1:That we seemed not into a “party mood” for her b-day, na according to bobit di na siya love ng mga friends nya…
Issue #2:That bobit got offended because of our request to reschedule supposedly our tagaytay weekend.
Issue #2: She was alarmed that I texted George and Rey re bobit’s comments… “ano nalang na panumdumon nila iya” was her statement.
Issue #4: Na bigla akong naging vegetarian

Teka lang? I think I jumped into the Cons na, hehehe…Yun! aside from having difficulty in commuting to Makati, having to pack up things and getting up early, those issues will be haunting me…

Lately, Ive been away from the much needed socialization and I am swayed to believing that I was too tight with myself, had always to carry a laptop, still working at home, and I realize I miss my friends too esp. that loryycbk went home to redo her wedding a Boracay! Am I so strict with myself?Yes. Because I was in Boracay the same day george and lory were there and I didn’t know! I totally forgot about it…I can’t even remember that I have a cellphone!It slipped off my mind and I hate myself so much.

I think, midlife crisis doesn’t just happen during an individual’s mid-life years (depende malay mo talagang midlife na namin hehehe)coz look at us! Each of us had a taste of midlife crisis recently…Maiinit ang ulo, Insecure, Palaging nang-aaway, depressed, tired sick, broken hearted and badtrip palagi…ano ba yan!

RJ and derik had their own issues and just always everytime, everyhting goes back to the issue of “having sorry for what you’ve done” well can’t blame rj too…he has his reasons…pinag awayan ang unan! hayyy kaka stress but at the same time i have been entertained seeing rj so pissed off at lumalabas ang mga classic lines nya! sometimes its a delight to my senses…

So now, its (9:25pm and i am still at the office with claire, chat etc. makes me wonder if i’m gonna do this for the next five years! grabe, wag naman

so low batt.

shutting down…

ganito ako ka hyper dati

 …i got this post from my other blog…when i was still doing senseful things, hehehe.

Usaping Connectivity

 I remember during our christmas party last year at Discovery, there was one question that we have to answer before we can have our gifts…bubunot ka sa box and have to broadcast your answer…my question goes “What is it that you would want to achieve for next year”…without a second thought, I answered “connectivity”…Now, I realized December is getting near again, yet connectivity is far from being achieved.

Of course, im talking about internet connection in our project areas..o di ba, ganyan ako ka dedicated sa trabaho ko- blog nalang about projects pa rin ang nasusulat ko…

After a bad weekend with my prepaid weroam which cannot be connected, my entire week was full of anxiety…I should have been relaxin’ after my 5-week travel but hell no! ive been attacked by text messages from our project beneficiaries demanding for their internet connection (our fault because we promised, well be back after approx. 3 weeks to install their wireless: aka weroam)…i can never get over the fact that Smart Bro’s survey on our area gave us a not feasible result…

So! I had a nerve wrecking review of the options that we can use for the areas…my realizations regarding weroam over my bad weekend was not so encouraging, first is the technical capability to troubleshoot the gadget in case it won’t function properly (e.g no connection or unable to browse etc.), second is related…the support service they would need in case troubleshooting technique is impossible…my goodness, as of now, alang support service sa mga probinsya- its either you text a friend in manila to call the customer service or you call the CS long distance para lang ma address ang problem mo…i’ve said this several times during the launching activities…I don’t wanna receive text messages from all the fans (ahem, we call them our fans-panay text e) pero this early i received several inquiry on how to’s and what to do and even may sira na pow! gosh promise, pag tumunog ang cellphone ko at makitang kong galing ito sa mga fans talagang inaanticipate ko nang trouble ito…3rd, i think is a major issue-the quality of service e.g speed etc., i can’t help but *sigh*….

Anyway so yun…why don’t i try emailing people who might be able to know some info, first tanong tanong kay kiroj kaso hindi clear usapan namin e-kailangan yata isang overnight saty sa tagaytay para maintindihan ko ang technolohiya nila, i tried posting sa yahoo group ng CeCs, fortunately after a short while, merong sumagot sa akin, head pa ng filed office ng NCC…i was given a few information sa mga options, although some of it I already tried contacting…i appreciate it so much then nabuhayan ako ng loob upon knowing na may CeC sa caraga na dream vsat ang gamit…we already requested a proposal from dream before kaso pagkakita palang ng $$$ na babayarin nadiscouraged na ang lahat ng tao-now looking at the financial status of project, i thought baka kaya pang i squeeze in ang vsat na yan sa budget…tried calling and medyo maganda ang usapan namin- set ang meeting sa wednesday but i was not contented, i tried to contact ASTI again- natatawa ako kasi dati ko pa rin silang kausap before na hindi natuloy2 because mahal nga ang mga quotation or hindi serviceable ang areas namin…Now im trying again…Nakakalap ako ng tsismis este information sa ASTI that PCARRD will be using Globe wireless in some of FITS or Consortia…is this the USB modem? Oo daw so naexcite ako- asked if they could check our areas at kung anong magagawa nila…

Hindi ako mapalagay, i tried calling Globe and asked info re their wireless service, later that day, i got an email na ipapacheck na nila ang site namin..

Came wednesday, nagkita nakami ng dream boy -still giving us 70K one time payment but well see daw if pwede pang inegotiate sa presidente…I am not atechnical person but i tried probing a little- so yun papasa daw sila ng proposal…

Mukang ayaw na naman ng boss ko at sobrang mahal daw-concerned siya sa sustainability kasi the cooperatives might not be able to pay the recurring charges… *hay again ako*

Pinabayaan ko nalang muna, in the meantime follow up ko kung anong nangyayari sa weroam prepaid na yan at ayaw gumana- tried calling the customer service-after a half day dial here there and everywhere, presto! may nakausap din akong tao-akala ko pa nga machine siya e-muntik ko nang maitanong “totoo na ba ito?” So yun may pinagalaw lang siya and it eventually worked kaso ayaw magbrowse sa internet…grrrrrr, punong puno na ako…kaya dinedma ko na…hirap ng hindi techi…always dependent sa support service.

Friday, that’s today, I got a call from Dyna of Innove- medyo maganda ang usapan namin plus yung pricing mukang kaya kasi kung wireless nga siya and 1 year lang lock up plus DSL quality din so we might as well opt to tap it rather than VSAT. Ichecheck pa daw nila…positive….positive…positive…

Later this afternoon, the dream boy also called and giving me a news blast- they’re offering the dream vsat to 35thousand! can you believe that???well, i don’t know hindi ako fully happy, parang may nagbabadya…suddenly, ADA arrived and talked to me- sabi daw ng taga CICT, one-way internet lang ang dream and it does’nt work well daw *waaaah!* ayoko na talaga, so ano nagagawin natin niyan?

Try nga uli ang weroam sa desktop kasi baka lang may mga settings na di namin nagawa- ayun gumana siya- with all my excitement i texted Nica, Elen, Lenie, Chris and Elgene- sabi ko im delighted to tell you that im using weroam connection in my PC right now so pwedeng pwee na nating magamit ito sa baba- nakikinikinita kona ang ngiti ng ipe! Message sent.And then it went blank again. I can see the aircard icon with a big X on it- *sigh* relax, nagloko lang konti try shutting down. Launch uli…ala pa rin…so ayun

Lesson learned? Huwag masyadong emotional. Stay stoic until such time na proven nang magwowork ang ginagawa nyo…ang hirap palang hyper ka, tapos bigla down tapos hyper tapos down uli…

_shut down_

target: european tour

nope, di pa ako nag european tour-nagbabalak palang hehehe…

been trying to squeeze my little brain to produce a good write up to no avail. tagal ko ng walang post, nagrereklamo na ang mga parokyano ko hehehe!

well, what’s new?not that much except that I got some stuff my from friend debbie in italy through roda. roda is my friend here in qatar who went on a european tour and met debbie through me. Debbie is my college classmate way back Philippines, now she’s based in Italy and having a great time traveling Europe whenever she can.

since i got aware of how wonderful traveling is, i’ve been dreaming of strolling the streets of italy, france, germany spain, switzerland and all nearby countries. I dunno if i can ever fulfill that but im working on it. inshallah!

in a quick email exchange with my good friend korky in korea, she told me that she’s planning to go on an eu tour this year before going back to the Philippines. wow, i really envy her. makes me regret why i gave up my quest for M.A scholarships, sigh! It seems that pursuing for further education in other countries has a lot of perks. Aside sa free education and allowances, one can have the chance of traveling in between school breaks.

Last night, i had a quick visit to roda with my friend mijie to get the stuffs debbie sent. roda told us how nice it was to travel even if she’s alone. Her Switzerland pix were panoramic.nakakainggit talaga. As in. I’ve had too much of her stories that I promised myself to backpack next year, maybe August since Debbie said August is a month long holiday for her, meaning we can make gala everywhere we want. Sama din daw si mijie kaso kailangan daw puntahan din namin ang Greece dahil feeling nya nandun ang soulmate nya hahaha!

Well, ito lang naman ang mga gusto kong puntahan:

Milan and Venice, Italy; Paris France; Vienna, Austria; Barcelona and Madrid, Spain; Germany; Holland; SWITZERLAND; and PRAGUE.

office humor 2

…as told by Ate Mariz over dinner at Caravan: (Kakaiba talaga sa ibang bansa, palaging nagkakaintindihan, hehehe) 

Mariz:Do you know how much is a rice cooker?

Motaz: It depends, how many kilos?

Mariz: (Thinking maybe how many kilos can fit the rice cooker) Hmmm…maybe 1 kilo.

Motaz: Ah! maybe 9 or 10 riyals something like that.

Mariz: What? I don’t think so, maybe its about a hundred.

Motaz: No, its only 9 or 10, maybe 12..Depending on the rice? What do you like? Egyptian rice or Indian rice?

*Toinks, Motaz, rice COOKER po, hindi rice!waaaaaaaaaaah*

Ok. So Motaz went to to Souq to check rice cooker. Then he called Mariz.

Motaz: Mariz, I found it, how many do you like, 1, 2 or 3?

Mariz: What 1, 2 or 3?

Motaz:  This cooker. You know, fire! 1, 2 or 3?

*” Waaaaaaaaaaaaaaah! Motaz, burner ng stove yang tinitingnan mo, gusto ko RICE COOKER!”

office humor

HUMOR 1:

Imagine 2 employees talking to the phone without knowing that its the 2 of them who were actually talking. Whew!

The scenario: A factory employee came up to the office and handed his phone to the secretary.

Factory worker: ” O, kausapin mo, nagtatanong ng fax number natin”

Secretary: ” yes, hello good afternoon”

Girl: Opo kabayan? Good afternoon po” Magpafax po sana kami ng dimension nung glass, ano pong fax number nyo? Sa X Company po ito (changed the company name for confidentiality).

Secretary: ” Ah, oo sa X Company to, para kanino po ang fax?”

Girl: “Para po sa foreman ng X Project (palitan uli)”

Secretary: “Ah, ok- ito po ang fax number namin 4501234″

Girl: “Ay hindi hu, yung fax number nyo ho” Sa X Company po ito”

Secretary: “Ay yun nga po ang fax number namin, 4501234″

Girl: ” E, amin pong fax number yan e.” Sa XCompany po ako”

Secretary: “Teka lang, yan nga fax namin dito sa Xcompany e”

Girl: “Saan po ba ito?”

Secretary: “Sa XCompany nga”

Girl: “Ngee, sino to? Judith?Si Agnes to!”

-Utang na loob! magkatabi lang kami ng cubicle, na wrong number pala siya at ang natawagan nya ang sarili naming foreman!” waaaaaaaaaaaaah hahaha!

Humor 2

The Boss asked the PRO to deliver a check to sister company urgent so he needs to find the location.

PRO to Secretary: ”Please give me the number of Y Company”

Secretary: “I don’t have the number, but I have the number of A Company, their mother company, you can ask for office location there,. Ok, here’ s the number: 4503456.”

So PRO called the number the A company and asked the operator for the location of Y Company.

PRO: Good morning, I am PRO of X Company, can i have the office location of Y Company please?”

Operator of A Company: Sir, I’m sorry but they just transfered. Please call their number 4501234″

PRO: ”Ok, shukran”

Then PRO called the number but it was busy. After 3 attempts, he stopped for a while and called again after 15 minutes but still it was busy.

After an hour the boss called him and sent him to drop the check. So off he went and said he will just call from his mobile while driving.

Meanwhile in the office, the phone rang, the secretary answered : Yes Good Afternoon, may I help you?”

PRO: Yes, I am PRO from X Company, I need to get your location because I need to deliver check”

Secretary: Ok, we are located at St. __, Gate ___ of the Industrial Area, just at the back of Labor Accommodation.

PRO: ” What? Judy, is this you?”

Toinks! Ang binigay na telephone number ng mother company, telephone number namin- kaya pla busy ng busy nung tumatawag ang PRO- waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah! Ayoko na!

my own version of financial crisis

Hit by financial crisis or not, our company has been notorious in giving late salaries. It started with 2 days, then 3, 5 and now it became 16 days!

What’s sad is we suffer the bank penalties. If our salary is not transfered before the cut off, it will automatically give us endless charges for the credit cards and for the loans. Its really a headache.

It was only yesterday when we got our February salary. During the two-week period of waiting, I craved for lots of things like ice cream, steak, pasta, pizza- name it! I felt so deprived. Although I had a few bucks from my rakets and I’ve  eaten out a few times, still the feeling of wanting won’t go away.

Anyway, after we got our salary, I thought of pampering myself with the things and food that I wanted to have but as usual all the cravings ceased I could even forget about lunch and dinner. Its funny how our mind responds to money matters. When I didnt have money, I am dying to buy a new blouse and shoes but now that I can go and buy it, I felt that I can actually live without it. I think my answer to being a shopaholic is proscastination. Believe me, it works!

battling the blues

Birthdays can really make me down. I think the reason is quite simple. When its your birthday, you have a lot of expectations and since we do not always get what we want, we end up lonely. Anyway, here are more reasons why I kinda felt the blues and the thoughts that shook it off…

1. I’m getting older. Waaaaaaaaaaaaaah! The number of candles on the cake keeps increasing every year. Well,  the only consolation I always get is that, I don’t look like my age…

2. My birthday falls on Valentines day. It has pros and cons. For one, tipid sila sa gift! hehehe…Some people said I was born out of love and sometimes it follows that I am special to the one who loves me (nasan ka? utang na loob, magpakilala ka na ). pero pambihira, they always expect me to go out on a date!

2. Since I am out of the country, only a  few people remembered to send a message or call. Unlike when I was in the Philippines. My phone inbox was super toxic! On the other hand, tipid sa load- konti lang ang rereplyan e, hehehe :-)

3. Still working on my birthday. Damn! Since I started to work, I never had a great birthday holiday. I was always working. Grrrrrr!  It kept me busy though. No room for sensing the blues!

4. Birthdays became like an ordinary day unlike when you were a kid, you get to celebrate in parties. Di bale, di na rin uso ngayon ang treat e, sabihin mo nalang wag na rin sila magtreat sa bdays nila para quits hehehe…

5. If  its your birthday, you have to look happy kahit hindi so nakakastress magplan beginning with what you will wear and what to do all day. Pati nga reply mo sa mga greetings, nakakasawa din. I realized one thing though, sometimes naloloko mo rin sarili mo, even for a moment…kunyaring masaya can turn out really masaya!

To all those who wished me wonderful things, my heartfelt thanks, I’m thankful I survived another difficult year… glad the habitual day is over…will do the stunts again next year!

1133

call it coincidence, but this number has been in my consciousness for the longest time of 11 years (shocks, that number again 11…and Grant Hill’s number is 33)

it just pops up everywhere and anytime, mostly in my clock, cellphone, bills and other things which involve digits. I don’t know why. I thought of writing this since last year but it stayed with my drafts because I dunno what to write.  But today, it appeared again. As I was writing an email to a friend, the phone rang and i saw the same number in the phone display monitor and when I got back to my email, I saw that the draft was saved at 1133! 

1133 was the agent number of my ex-boylet back then. Since we were working for a pager company, he used to page me a lot when he’s on duty. It was considered a major violation since operators were not suppose to send messages during the shifts but he loved doing it. May pagkapasaway siya

We didnt see each other again after I left my job in 1999, but when I went home last year, I saw an old diary with his corni messages which I religiously transfered from my pager. Hahaha, those were the cheesy days

I wonder what happened to him now. I thought maybe I could win a lottery for this number, who knows? or maybe I’ll be able to get married by the age of 33 (utang na loob!)

our new obsession

There were a lot of things that I got fixated with for a while like bedsheets, pillows, lotions, towels, sandals, shoes, socks, blouses and pants, hats, eye shadows and make up, books etc.

We have a small flat and so there’s nothing I bought which escaped my housemates’ attention. Its funny but they usually end up being lured to buy also the things that I am crazy with.

Our transfer to a smaller room gave us the opportunity to throw away unnecessary things, I tried my darnest to be minimalist but still the collector in me prevailed Examining my closets, I didn’t like the different colors and types of hangers which I’ve been using so I bought dozens of hangers all with green color to make it look nicer. Now, my housemates asked me to buy also hangers and agreed to color coding! mga OC talaga.

Last night we went to Centerpoint and look around the section of home fragrances and then came a new obsession: Potpourris!

We enjoyed putting it everywhere! inside our room and closets, shoe cabinet, tables and maybe tomorrow, they’ll be surprise to see one in the bathroom and kitchen…harharhar

“He’s not just that into you”

I was surprised to get hold of this book last night after we moved all our things to our new room. I gave this book to Rosa a year ago during the time she had to let go of a relationship. I was so skeptical to her depression and crying every night and now its my time to have a feel of that.

The book as explained  by Denise Mann in www.webmd.com/sex-relationships/guide/just-not-that-into-, says:

The bottom line is that men are not complicated and there are no mixed messages. If he doesn’t ask you out, call you soon after a date, or want to come inside with you after a date, then he’s just not that into you

The Truth Shall Set You Free?

“Coming up with reasons that he might not have called that are not critical of you is a natural defense mechanism,” says New York City psychoanalyst Gail Saltz, MD, author of Becoming Real: Defeating the Stories We Tell Ourselves That Hold Us Back.

Such defenses serve a positive and a negative function, she says. “They can keep us from being overwhelmed by negative emotions, but if you are always in denial and your head is in the sand, that’s not useful either because it keeps you holding onto a relationship where there is none,” she tells WebMD.

“Hearing the words ‘he’s not that into you’ are painful because it’s like ‘what’s wrong with me?’” she says. But, Saltz notes, it’s not always that simple. “Sometimes there is something going on that is not about you,” she says. “The possibilities are endless and this book is popular because usually we don’t like to talk about the possibility that you are not the one.”

Funny how the world works, but I guess the book was purposely left for me. Although, my case may have been different but i can still relate to that feeling. The title explains it all.